What races through your head as you attempt to slip into unconsciousness? Are they thoughts you would rather not talk about. Maybe they are nice happy thoughts, maybe not. Sure we can take pills to find this sleep we can't grab as it's right there you can see it, taste it, but no...
Wide open eyes in the middle of a completely dark room, acknowledging you should be deep in slumber. To find yourself up a few minutes later to the sun soaking brighter shades of color through the curtains. Damn, another night of wasted consciousness, being kept awake by the sleeping subconscious. Ironic that the simplest things that put you to sleep in the past maybe back to childhood. The memories the excitement, is now the very think keeping you awake at night, reading this, maybe wondering to yourself could you have done it different? How would it have been if i would of......."
My friends these thoughts are mental masturbation. One can never benefit from wondering, doubting, regretting, it's what makes us who we are! Without the mistakes and the bad decisions we have made, we wouldn't be the individual we are today. If we take those mistakes and chalk them up to experience and learn something, be thankful they happened. If you do fuck up and don't learn anything it was a missed, a wasted opportunity for knowledge. The questions that can never be answered are the questions that are never asked. Know that the only thing you can do, is do it better from here on out.
There's no goin' back, changing anything, what's done is done. It is what it is. Move on live another day and enjoy it.
Now go to bed, and sleep well...GOODNIGHT! 'J'
